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Thursday, March 30, 2006 ]
and all things must come to an end.
really, what's the point of moving my blog when i'm actually still writing. i think it's more of a personal choice and probably just a meaningful gesture to myself. maybe like a metamorphosis. or just simply evolving. so i found myself censoring some things i want to say. or not rambling as much as i tend to naturally. so on my new page i'm gonna ramble all i want in minute detail. and be as pms-ey and direct if i wish.
i've had alot of fun blogging here, but i think to myself it's almost symbolic that i should move on from here, my first nonsuperprivate blog. for a myriad of reasons. i've been thru the craziest of times with this blog experiment, though not every moment or emotion clearly and explicitly documented
(far from it haha), but for those who have been along for the ride beside me, and also myself, reading between the lines brings back tons of memories, good and bad. i know i am a contradiction; i am both an open book and also very intensely private, all at once. i have grown with this blog which has accompanied me since i left singapore for the states. i have lived, loved, lost. laughed, sobbed, doubted, and believed. reading and reflecting has definitely helped me prioritise, try to improve the bad bits, and to also stay true to myself.
and there's just so much that i've been thru and learnt, and i have put my experiences and thoughts in words because that's my way of reviewing things and letting it all out. doing so has helped me sift out my thoughts and feelings clearly, and to just grow as a person.
when we look back sometimes, so many things seem so small and immaterial, though it seemed major at the time. and everything seems trivial and sometimes even immature. very much like
ohmygod we actually said/did that? unresolved misunderstandings from the times when we were younger and headier and bitchier, clashes when tempers were more fiery, broken hearts when we were more fragile.
but as we grow older we kind of mellow, and actually look back and even laugh at how stupid we used to be. and i guess that's all part and parcel of life. i don't think i'm the same person i was 5 years ago. and still, everyday i am finding myself. but that's growing. and hopefully maturing. i am certainly clearer of who i am, more confident of what i want and surer of what i believe in today than i was years ago. and it's a continual process. learning to laugh at yourself. losing friends, making new ones along the way, rediscovering old ones, and treasuring those that last. hoping to be forgiven, and learning to forgive. storing away the good times preciously, and moving on from the bad. having your trust betrayed but not fearing to trust again. maybe we get second chances, maybe we dont. but whatever it is, we just make the best of what we have.
and no matter how good the going for anything is, we ultimately have to let go.
new things can only be discovered when we start learning to leave things behind.
so que sera sera, what will be will be.
now i'll be rambling on
elsewhere instead.
and so it is
like you said it would be
life goes easy on me
most of the time
and so it is
the shorter story
no love, no glory
no hero in her skies.
this thought blossomed at 10:25 PM
1 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 ]
i am in the process of moving my blog to a
new address as i said i would before. it's still a work in progress. probably going to still change the banner and stuff. but soft launching it anyway in line with turning 21 and all. hehh though this one has served me well. new url and template and all! similar but different. but still typically me.
kinda fun tiring but oh, what a labour of love.
this thought blossomed at 3:49 AM
0 petal(s) around the rose
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Saturday, March 25, 2006 ]
YES my dearies i have hit the big 2-1.
and i couldnt have asked for more.
all of you are so superduperly wonderful.
to my close friends here
(youknowwhouare) who actually managed to surprise me at the stroke of midnight with me in my pjs. for the AHEM interesting choice of presents and the candles that wouldnt extinguish even while andrew stood in the cold. the fascinating musical windup thing. and everything else pretty and my go-find-it-yourself stash of goodies. and of course my first
(legal) margarita the beautiful cosy dinner and uh..
excursion and the superyummy ice wine.
for the things cards and warm thoughts that came in the mail. that travelled 3000 miles. made me feel all fuzzy. thankyouthankyouthankyouall.
for the long distance phone calls and catching up sessions :) its so sweet tt you guys took time to remember and drop a line. in US time or not. that made us seem so close though so far away. omg i love you guys.
for the msn messages and mouse-drawn pictures, smses and birthday wishes tt i may have missed cos i was MIA frm my computer. all brought a smile to my face.
and for the friendster and facebook scribbles.
and so a birthday is just another day.
and so it was just perfect the way it was, cosy and being reminded that i am so lucky to be loved by so many people.
:)
this thought blossomed at 1:36 PM
0 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 ]
there and back again.
back from a totally extremely super frickingly good crazy fun packed vacation
(extended, even) with a zillion and one stories to tell
of onceinalifetime experiences, quirks, coincidences, excellent food, twists of fate and just alot of very good blessed luck
but nothing quite like school to bring one crashing back to sad harsh cruel reality
but then i look at my tan, and i look at my photos
(1.3 GB worth, babeh)and i'm still crazily happy tho returning to school has dealt me a few harsh slaps across my sunburnt face
(aka SNOW, dismal examinations, projects and the avalanche of homework)no regrets no regrets!
this vacation ranks way up there as one of the coolest things i've ever done!
this thought blossomed at 7:37 PM
0 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Saturday, March 11, 2006 ]
finally TEMPORAL RELIEF!
blitzed thru the last 3 exams not really caring not really feeling
(i'll care and feel enough once the results come back)
for now though, all evil thoughts are to be banished!
spent the whole day shopping randomly and prepping for puerto rico and reading a stack of travel guides and now i feel like a pseudo
[note, PSEUDO] expert and in the BEST of spirits. just positively bopping and jumping around
it's gonna be so exciting!
[the past 2 weeks in blur]steak | exam | wowbaochicago |victoriassecretpink | exam miracle relief | lightheaded |pastures | bloomin' onions | library | city | dimsum |more steakers | the road ahead | subway | so much work
goodbye my darlings!!
my bags are packed my plane is a-coming and i'm ready to go
would have loved to bring tonnes more stuff but
thou shalt not overpack, and puerto rico hopefully will have TONNES of things to see and buy. to see at least, definitely
looking forward to the pristine perfect sugary beaches the great carribean food and just soaking up the sun and sights and recharging
OFF FOR SPRING BREAK!!
this thought blossomed at 1:34 AM
1 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Friday, March 10, 2006 ]
AHAHAHAHA
SPRING BREAK, BABY!
countdown to take off : 5 hours
living la vida loca
*muahmuahmuah*
this thought blossomed at 11:30 PM
0 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Thursday, March 09, 2006 ]
so near, yet so far.
this thought blossomed at 8:30 PM
0 petal(s) around the rose
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[
Thursday, March 30, 2006 ]
and all things must come to an end.
really, what's the point of moving my blog when i'm actually still writing. i think it's more of a personal choice and probably just a meaningful gesture to myself. maybe like a metamorphosis. or just simply evolving. so i found myself censoring some things i want to say. or not rambling as much as i tend to naturally. so on my new page i'm gonna ramble all i want in minute detail. and be as pms-ey and direct if i wish.
i've had alot of fun blogging here, but i think to myself it's almost symbolic that i should move on from here, my first nonsuperprivate blog. for a myriad of reasons. i've been thru the craziest of times with this blog experiment, though not every moment or emotion clearly and explicitly documented
(far from it haha), but for those who have been along for the ride beside me, and also myself, reading between the lines brings back tons of memories, good and bad. i know i am a contradiction; i am both an open book and also very intensely private, all at once. i have grown with this blog which has accompanied me since i left singapore for the states. i have lived, loved, lost. laughed, sobbed, doubted, and believed. reading and reflecting has definitely helped me prioritise, try to improve the bad bits, and to also stay true to myself.
and there's just so much that i've been thru and learnt, and i have put my experiences and thoughts in words because that's my way of reviewing things and letting it all out. doing so has helped me sift out my thoughts and feelings clearly, and to just grow as a person.
when we look back sometimes, so many things seem so small and immaterial, though it seemed major at the time. and everything seems trivial and sometimes even immature. very much like
ohmygod we actually said/did that? unresolved misunderstandings from the times when we were younger and headier and bitchier, clashes when tempers were more fiery, broken hearts when we were more fragile.
but as we grow older we kind of mellow, and actually look back and even laugh at how stupid we used to be. and i guess that's all part and parcel of life. i don't think i'm the same person i was 5 years ago. and still, everyday i am finding myself. but that's growing. and hopefully maturing. i am certainly clearer of who i am, more confident of what i want and surer of what i believe in today than i was years ago. and it's a continual process. learning to laugh at yourself. losing friends, making new ones along the way, rediscovering old ones, and treasuring those that last. hoping to be forgiven, and learning to forgive. storing away the good times preciously, and moving on from the bad. having your trust betrayed but not fearing to trust again. maybe we get second chances, maybe we dont. but whatever it is, we just make the best of what we have.
and no matter how good the going for anything is, we ultimately have to let go.
new things can only be discovered when we start learning to leave things behind.
so que sera sera, what will be will be.
now i'll be rambling on
elsewhere instead.
and so it is
like you said it would be
life goes easy on me
most of the time
and so it is
the shorter story
no love, no glory
no hero in her skies.
this thought blossomed at 10:25 PM
1 Comment(s)
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[
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 ]
i am in the process of moving my blog to a
new address as i said i would before. it's still a work in progress. probably going to still change the banner and stuff. but soft launching it anyway in line with turning 21 and all. hehh though this one has served me well. new url and template and all! similar but different. but still typically me.
kinda fun tiring but oh, what a labour of love.
this thought blossomed at 3:49 AM
0 Comment(s)
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[
Saturday, March 25, 2006 ]
YES my dearies i have hit the big 2-1.
and i couldnt have asked for more.
all of you are so superduperly wonderful.
to my close friends here
(youknowwhouare) who actually managed to surprise me at the stroke of midnight with me in my pjs. for the AHEM interesting choice of presents and the candles that wouldnt extinguish even while andrew stood in the cold. the fascinating musical windup thing. and everything else pretty and my go-find-it-yourself stash of goodies. and of course my first
(legal) margarita the beautiful cosy dinner and uh..
excursion and the superyummy ice wine.
for the things cards and warm thoughts that came in the mail. that travelled 3000 miles. made me feel all fuzzy. thankyouthankyouthankyouall.
for the long distance phone calls and catching up sessions :) its so sweet tt you guys took time to remember and drop a line. in US time or not. that made us seem so close though so far away. omg i love you guys.
for the msn messages and mouse-drawn pictures, smses and birthday wishes tt i may have missed cos i was MIA frm my computer. all brought a smile to my face.
and for the friendster and facebook scribbles.
and so a birthday is just another day.
and so it was just perfect the way it was, cosy and being reminded that i am so lucky to be loved by so many people.
:)
this thought blossomed at 1:36 PM
0 Comment(s)
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[
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 ]
there and back again.
back from a totally extremely super frickingly good crazy fun packed vacation
(extended, even) with a zillion and one stories to tell
of onceinalifetime experiences, quirks, coincidences, excellent food, twists of fate and just alot of very good blessed luck
but nothing quite like school to bring one crashing back to sad harsh cruel reality
but then i look at my tan, and i look at my photos
(1.3 GB worth, babeh)and i'm still crazily happy tho returning to school has dealt me a few harsh slaps across my sunburnt face
(aka SNOW, dismal examinations, projects and the avalanche of homework)no regrets no regrets!
this vacation ranks way up there as one of the coolest things i've ever done!
this thought blossomed at 7:37 PM
0 Comment(s)
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[
Saturday, March 11, 2006 ]
finally TEMPORAL RELIEF!
blitzed thru the last 3 exams not really caring not really feeling
(i'll care and feel enough once the results come back)
for now though, all evil thoughts are to be banished!
spent the whole day shopping randomly and prepping for puerto rico and reading a stack of travel guides and now i feel like a pseudo
[note, PSEUDO] expert and in the BEST of spirits. just positively bopping and jumping around
it's gonna be so exciting!
[the past 2 weeks in blur]steak | exam | wowbaochicago |victoriassecretpink | exam miracle relief | lightheaded |pastures | bloomin' onions | library | city | dimsum |more steakers | the road ahead | subway | so much work
goodbye my darlings!!
my bags are packed my plane is a-coming and i'm ready to go
would have loved to bring tonnes more stuff but
thou shalt not overpack, and puerto rico hopefully will have TONNES of things to see and buy. to see at least, definitely
looking forward to the pristine perfect sugary beaches the great carribean food and just soaking up the sun and sights and recharging
OFF FOR SPRING BREAK!!
this thought blossomed at 1:34 AM
1 Comment(s)
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[
Friday, March 10, 2006 ]
AHAHAHAHA
SPRING BREAK, BABY!
countdown to take off : 5 hours
living la vida loca
*muahmuahmuah*
this thought blossomed at 11:30 PM
0 Comment(s)
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[
Thursday, March 09, 2006 ]
so near, yet so far.
this thought blossomed at 8:30 PM
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